Numb

Hi. Lately, I've been doing my best to recover from all these depression stuff. It's hard. I need support, help and courage to move on. Everything's like a bit better than those days when I think there's no 1% hope left for me. Now, My family, true friends and of course God helping me through all these sufferings.

I feel weird lately. I don't feel that sad anymore but I don't feel any happiness or good feelings too. I don't know if I'm okay or I'm just now numb, someone who doesn't feel anything. But I think this is better than feeling so down everyday, at least now I feel a bit soothed because I don't feel anything. Seems an anesthesia was injected to me, thanks to whoever did that ( odd ) .

No much zeal to write more here, like I said I'm like totally numb right now. So here's a song for you to understand more my situation right now, I prepared the lyrics too for you to understand the song. Originally sung by Linkin Park entitled, Numb.  

♪ ♪ ♪ I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes,
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow,
Every step that I take is another mistake to you,
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow

[Chorus]
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
By becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you,
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow,
Every step that I take is another mistake to you,
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow,
And every second I waste is more than I can take!

[Chorus]

And I know I may end up failing too
But I know you were just like me with someone disappointed in you

[Chorus]

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be,
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be ♪ ♪ ♪


Lyrics from: http://www.lyrics007.comVideo from: chopstix102@youtube